Dear Daddy,

Happy Father's Day!


Love Ellie<3

So Blessed.

I follow a lot of blogs and am friends with a few moms on facebook and lately it seems all I read are heart breaking stories. Babies being born to soon, sick, or going to heaven too soon. I couldn't imagine what I would of done if they hadn't been able to get Ellie breathing when she was born. I feel so blessed to have my little girl and now 8 months old. I forget the rocky start we had. For so long I felt guilty because I developed pree but if I hadn't I wouldn't of been induced early and wouldn't been monitored closely. I probably would of lost her before my due date. With her cord wrapped around her neck she was slowly being killed. I should look at what happened as a gift from up above. My body saved my daughter by deciding it was done being pregnant. I am blessed to be able to hug and kiss Ellie each night. God knows I didn't deserve such a perfect daughter. Just 1 year ago today we we're finding out we were having a girl. Now we are 4 months from celebrating Ellie's first birthday.

To anyone that may read this which I don't think anyone will I just want to say never take life for granted and always count your blessings not everyone is as fortunate.
I  want to let every mother out there know even if your child is now soaring with the angels that you are loved and will always be in my thoughts and prayers.
To all the Angel babies gone too soon: <3 I hope you all are in peace and know you are loved and greatly missed.

So many changes

I can't even begin to say how much my baby girl is changing and it's only been a couple weeks. She has developed quite the attitude. You take anything away she screams till you give it back then laughs. Yea we're going to be working on that one. lol. She's a stinker. Also she has begun the process of learning words. THough she doesn't know what she's saying. Her first was mama and she says this only when she cries it melts my heart. Her second is baba and she loves repeating baba over and over while she plays. It's the cutest thing ever. I have new videos and photos to post soon. :)

Ellie Over the past 6 months

Three weeks

Halloween 2009

One Month

Two Months

Three Months

Four Months

Five Months

Easter 2010

Maybe who's to say.....

Well after some serious thinking I've come to the conclusion some babies don't crawl. Everyone has been getting on me lately because shows no attempt at wanting to crawl. She hates tummy time she'd rather sit up which she's been doing since 4 months(she's not lacking back muscles) or stand with your help. I can't force her to crawl can I? I don't see what is the big deal some babies don't crawl till after 9 months and some skip and go straight to walking. I don't know. :/

6 Months Ago.

It's crazy to think just six months ago today was the day I almost lost everything, but ended up with the most beautiful little baby girl. I never realized what other parents truly meant when they say time flies when you have a baby. Now I do and it really flies. It feels like just yesterday we we're in the NICU wishing and praying everything turns out okay to bringing Ellie home, to her first smile, her first laugh, the first time she rolled over, and the first time she sat up all by herself. My baby girl is already 6 months old. Some days I wish I could slow down time for just a bit, because soon my baby is not going to be a baby she will be a big girl. While that does make me happy I can't help but be sad I feel like I losing her to the big world already. Before to long she won't need mommy she'll be able to do everything on her own. Yes I realize that is still a long ways off but judging by how fast 6 months came and went I'm pretty sure 18 years will too. :(

We're still alive and kicking

Due to RSV, the flu, and double ear infections we've been out of commission. But we are back and determined to get our blogs back in order. Not that they really ever have but hopefully they will be now. LOL

What will we learn next.

We now roll, laugh, and jabber all the time. My baby is changing so much.

Rolling over!

Ellie rolled from belly to back for the first time! I'm excited I was starting to think she was behind. I have a video I'll upload later. :)

Ellie's 3 Months old.

I can't believe it she's already 3 months old. I will posting all her pictures soon. I had to wait some of her pictures had been stolen off my myspace so I took all pictures down and have to watermark them all.

Working on all our updates!

Over the next week I will post all our updates and new pictures of little miss Ellie. She is getting so big. Time is flying by and it seems I don't have enough of it to keep up on everything.

My long over due birth story

My labor wasvery traumatic. When I hit 34 weeks I was I diagnosed with preeclampsia and from there it was touch and go I was having about 3 appt a week to be monitored. They decided to get me to 37 weeks so Ellie's lungs could have more time but it was easy even on strict bed rest my bp was getting hight and my protein levels were only getting high as time passed. So when I went in for my check up on September 30 they decided to admit me once again only this time after 24 hours they decided the hospital would be where I would stay till I delivered Ellie. I was induced right at 37 weeks. I was in labor for about 36 hours. It started October 4 at 6 pm by having cervidil inserted. After a long night of cramping and getting no where still sitting at 1 cm I was started on oxytocin(AKA Pitocin) at 7 am. By 1 pm I hadn't made any progress I was still sitting at 1 cm. So They stopped that and let me shower and eat which didn't go well they forgot to mention to only get clear liquids. My grilled cheese and tomato soup ended up in the trash and all me and baby got was sherbet ice cream and that was hard keeping down. By 4 pm I was at 2 cm so they inserted cytotec at 430-5 hoping that would throw me into labor. The on call doctor came in at 8 I was still sitting at about 2-3 cm so she broke my water right then at 8:10pm and within seconds the contractions I thought we're bad just got alot worse. She also started the pitocin back up. Within an hour I got pain meds through my IV which don't get rid of the pain they make you very relaxed but they only last an hour and you can only get three dose's and they become less effective every dose. I got a second dose and after 45 minutes I asked for the epidural(which I said I would never get). They put the epi and a catheter and internal moniter to watch Ellie closer because her heart rate was too high and wasn't going down. They got all those going by 12 pm(Pitocin makes your contractions come harder and stronger so be ware) About 6 in the morning they realized my epidural wasn't working due to my swelling and being able to lay on my sides only (due to my bp) it was resisting the flow of the drugs so they inserted a new medication in and it was amazing but it didn't get rid of all the pain in my pelvic area but it felt amazing . One of my doctors that was there checking on a patient came in and checked me do to my on call doctor being in surgery at 10 am I was 8/9 cm. I had a small lip left. The nurse was going to deliver me but every contraction Ellie's heart rate would dip very low. THe doctor visting said to try and have me wait as long as she could just incase otherwise he would deliver me. So we waited till 10:30 and luckily he was done with surgery. He had me start pushing as soon as he arrived. After 5 minutes he wanted to do a C-section but he told me to push a couple more time Ellie's heart was still dipping really low. They decided they didn't have time to get me to the operation room decided to use the vacuum to get her out. At 10:46 am Ellie was born. She weighed 6lbs 4 oz and was 18 inches long. Her cord was around her neck and her lungs weren't quite ready. When she was born she wasn't breathing they had to resuscitate her and put her on oxygen. They let Kenny hold her for a minute so I could see her. Then they rushed her too the NICU. So after 36 hours of labor I ended up with two small tears on each side totaling in like 4 stitches. I was in pain and I wasn't able to walk for 24 hours due to being so swollen. Even after 24 hours I had to have Kenny and a nurse hold on to my arms. My Kidneys had also started shutting down while I was in labor mostly from the pree. So all in all it hurt. But part of it was the induction and I said I wouldn't use pain medication but in the end I did after anout 24 hours I couldn't take the pain. Good luck to all mommies getting ready to have their babies. I wish you all the best and hope yours goes more smoothly then mine. About my baby she was in the NICU for 5 days. After oxygen, medication, 2 blood transfusions, IV, head scans, feeding tube, umbilical catheter, wonderful care from the amazing NICU nurses and a lot of blood drawls she was cleared to go home and it's been amazing ever since. I'm thankful my doctors decided to have me got to 37 weeks instead of 35. Thanks for reading me and Ellies long labor and delivery.

Long over due update!

Hey. Sorry for the long break in post. Ellie is here but not by her own doing. At 34 weeks I was diagnosed with preeclampsia and it progressively got worse everyday to the point they induced me at 37 weeks. I was in labor for 36 hours (not fun at all I will post my labor story here soon along with pictures) Ellie was rushed to the NICU after she arrived where she stayed for 4 days. She's great now. She turned 3 weeks yesterday. She's perfect in every way.

I thought It was time to just fill one out for fun.

How far along?: 31 weeks and 2 days

Total weight gain: 1lb

How big is baby?: at 28 weeks she was 2.8 lbs so I guessing she's about 3 something now.

Stretch marks?: None that I can see.

Sleep?:  We have parted ways between trips to the bath room Ellie's late night partys and just not comfortable I get about 4 to 6 hours if I'm lucky of sleep a night..

Best moment this week?:  THe Iowa State fair by far.

Movement?: All the time she loves kicking my bladder

Food cravings?:  None 

Labor signs?: BH count and lots of crampage 

Belly button in or out?:  In 

What I miss: Great sex lol

What I’m looking forward to: Holding my baby girl for teh first time and seeing her chubby cheeks in person. 

Milestone: We are at appts every 2 weeks. :) means I'm getting close to the End. 

Iowa State Fair at 31 weeks

SO last weekend Kenny and me went to the state fair. I had a blast. Got to see all the animals. The Zedonk was my favorite by far. WHo knew there was suck a think as a donk mixed with a zebra. The photography was amazing. So many great photo's. It makes me want to work even harder so I can get to the smae level as professionalism as some of those people. And oh my was the food heaven. To start it off we had walking taco and cheese curds, then cheese cake on a stick(didn't know they could do that), roasted corn, pizza, funnel cake, cup of cookies(best cookies you'll ever have), and of course strawberry smoothie. Oh and the goats.  I have never seen two grown men act like liitle kids upon seeing baby goats till Kenny and his older brother walked into the goat barn. 

No he wasn't punching the cow it was licking his had. Friendliest cow I've ever met.I do have to say his brother was the highlight of the state fair and you'll see why ---->  Yes. You are seeing correct. Ellie's uncle my future brother in law was walking around the Iowa State Fair in 2005 Concert Tour Kelly Clarkson T-Shirt that he bought of E-Bay just to wear at the fair all day. Oh yes he went to the Kelly Concert that saturday night at the fair. This is why I've decided he will not be allowed to watch Ellie by himself. lol